the first week of the semester has come and gone. i feel tired, exhausted for some reason. but...at the same time.....hopeful. after genetics lecture, rob and i met up with teresa for lunch at pasta!pasta! the woman at the cash rack mistook me for a girl. we ate. teresa grabbed her backpack, i grabbed my duffel and my guitar, and we left.
we talked. we talked like we hadn't done in such a long time. i miss those times when we'd just randomly call each other up and talk about nothing, or about everything. i didn't realize how much i miss teresa until we started talking. she told me about her problems, i told her about mine. i asked her why she was going back this weekend, the first weekend after classes started. she told me that she missed her family, that she wanted to see her brother again. i thought that was so sweet of her. as we talked, teresa drove. slowly, slowly, fog crept up upon us, enshrouding us, until we were in the belly of the gloom.
after dinner, i showered and drove to barnes and noble to study. i nearly fell asleep quite a few times. i fell asleep thrice. i left and went to teresa's house. kev had a new dell, so i helped him set it up.
on the way back, the fog sighed and snuggled contentedly against my car. i felt lost somewhere between myself and that point where the world ends. i felt sad; i felt surreal. as if i was driving forward through time, back to the present. as if i was driving back from another late night at teresa and kev's back in junior year. but kevin wasn't so tall three years ago. but the door to the garage was a different color three years ago. but resa hadn't been through all the shit she's been through three years ago. but i was facing different personal demons three years ago.
i somehow made it back home, to my dad's computer. i've been talking to michael since midnight.
